Results from beta #2

13 dpo = 30
15 dpo = 79
doubling time of 34.36 hours

I'm thrilled that it did slightly better than double but I'm still not convinced that this one is going to stick around.

The nurse I spoke to today was in no mood to entertain thoughts of a viability scan.  She kept telling me that I wouldn't be able to see anything because it was too early.  I told her I wasn't asking for one now but for her to schedule one for 2ish weeks from now.  She didn't even care that the doctor had already signed off on it.  She told me that I could ask the doctor myself when I see her at my first appt on the 27th.   I don't think I like her.

I'm not really feeling any different other than some cramping and things smelling weird.

A late xmas gift

It looks like Mr. O might be a big brother in the fall.
I tested and saw a very faint line at 12dpo and called my regular ob to see if they would do some blood work.  The nurse I spoke to was awesome!  She's my new BFF!  My old OB doesn't do maternity anymore so the nurse got a different doctor to agree to two betas 48 hours apart and a viability scan around 6 weeks if I get that far.  It was so nice to talk to someone who 'gets' the need to know NOW.  My first beta came back at 30.  Not too bad for 13dpo but not a rock star number either.  I had my blood drawn for the second test yesterday but because of the holiday I won't get the results until Tuesday.  I'm really worried about another early miscarriage.  I wish it was Tuesday already. 

I haven't told anyone yet so please don't mention it if we're friends in another forum or on FB just yet.  I  am definitely going to wait until after Tuesday to tell my family - maybe even longer than that. 

I'm honestly still kind of in denial/shock that it actually worked.  2012 is going to be an interesting year!

On to round 3

I got a positive opk yesterday afternoon and called the new place first thing this morning to get an appt.  It was a bit frustrating because they had to first reach the person on call to see when they could come in before they could schedule something.  Luckily I didn't have anywhere that I had to be today but I can see that maybe being a problem on a busier day.  Then again nothing about waiting for O and scheduling an IUI is ever convenient.  I had to take Mr. O with me because no one was around to watch him.  If I was still going to the fancy clinic I might have considering cancelling because the last thing I would want to do is parade him through the waiting room.  It wasn't a big deal at the new place because they are a regular practice so I didn't have to worry about it.

The midwife on call was very sweet and I barely felt a thing.  She said that everything was looking good.  I started to get killer O cramps later in the afternoon so I'm hoping that means that I got the timing right. 

Fingers crossed that the 3rd time is a charm.

Change can be good

After my November cycle ended with a BFN my RE wanted to get more aggressive and start monitoring and possibly some meds.  I wasn't ready emotionally or financially because honestly I wasn't worried that the first two cycles didn't work.  I asked around and made a last minute switch from the expensive big fancy clinic to a small ob office.  They do the IUI's for less than half the cost and maybe 2% of the hassle.  I wish I had known about them before because it would have saved me lots of money over the years.  If anyone near Boston wants the info just send me an email and I would be happy to share.

I had to go in for an initial consult with the Dr and to get a quick overview of how they work but that was it.  No blood work or hoops to jump through!  The office staff seemed very nice and working with a SMC is so not a big deal to them.  They see us all the time!

I decided to order just one vial because in addition to not getting stuck with any in storage I wanted to make sure that I'm going to stick with this new place.

Strike 2

SIGH!  and we are on to the next cycle.

I was planning on taking December off but once CD1 showed it's face I changed my mind. I'm trying to decide if I want 2 more vials or just go one at a time.  The advantage of 2 is that I can combine the crazy shipping cost.  I really don't want to be stuck with an extra vial WHEN this works and then have to either keep paying storage fees or let them pour the vial down the drain.  Ugh!  I'm trying to decide if in the end I'll be more annoyed about the cost of wasting a vial or the cost of the shipping.

I know that I could always donate or try to sell any extra vials but that could end up being a big hassle too.

Mostly I'm just really over this whole TTC thing.  I just  really really hate the whole process.

Timing wish granted

3 Days down and 11 more to go of this TWW

I got lucky and the timing worked out for me this cycle.  I got a positive OPK on Saturday and IUI was on Sunday.  Testing was an adventure because I was out all day and had to do the OPK in a public restroom stall. Those digital tests take FOREVER and I wasn't really enjoying hanging out in the stall until it finally finished.  The long line of folks waiting to use the restroom weren't too happy about it either.  If they only knew why I was hogging the stall!

I really, really hope that it worked this time because I'm so ready to move past the TTC part.  If this cycle ends with a BFN I'll be sitting out December.  I just can't deal with all of the scheduling logistics in addition to the usual holiday stress and rushing around.  I'll also have to order more vials from the bank and I won't be able to do that until January.

Ready for round 2...if the timing is right

I was so disappointed that I got knocked out of the running a few days early and I didn't feel one tiny bit of relief.  I guess that means that I'm 100% on board for #2.

Fitting in an IUI this cycle is going to be rough.  I'm probably going to ovulate over the weekend and I might not be able to get out of work.  I would hate to skip a cycle now that I've gotten started.  Not to get too ahead of myself but the EDD for this cycle would be August and that would mean that my long distance sister would be able be here.  Skipping this month doesn't mean that I won't run into the same scheduling problem next cycle either so I'm going to have to figure out how to make it work.  Ugh!

Oh yeah, notice how I mentioned working?  I started a part-time job a few months ago.  I decided that I needed a practice job to get used to leaving Mr. O before jumping back into working a regular full-time job.  I absolutely realize how lucky I am to have been able to stay home with him for as long as I have but that doesn't make leaving him suck any less.  I only work a few days a week and my mother watches him for me.  That has been going ok but has been quite the lesson in learning to bite my tongue and let go of the little things.  She's great with him but let's just say that she has her own way of doing things (or not doing things!).  Mr. O enjoys his time with his Grandmother after about 3 or 4 hours he's ready for Mommy to come home.  He also doesn't like if I'm away for back to back days. 

I used my 11:11 on 11/11 wish to wish for not getting a postive opk until Saturday.  Let's hope it gets granted.