who do I save it for if the drama is coming from my mama?

I'm kind of uncomfortable with the whole baby shower bring me a present thing.

This is what I wanted - very small gathering of people that I actually like and know and I wanted the focus to be on celebrating the baby and not so much on the gifts. I wanted it to be in a small function room or nice quiet restaurant. I wanted the whole thing to be drama free and actually about what I wanted.

What I didn't want - lots of people that I don't really like or even know. I absolutely didn't want it to be at my mother's house (my dad's side of the family wouldn't be comfortable).

I have two sisters and I had hoped that they would have realized that their main job was containing my mother. No such luck. My mother made the guest list and more than half of the list is people that I do not want there. My mother has a few friends that I just do not like, neighbors of hers that I might have said hello to 3 times in the last 20 years, and the one that boggles my mind the most is two of my nephews playmates and their mother. I can't stand those kids! She also has gone off on her own path and has asked various friends and neighbors to make different foods or favors. My sisters had a theme in mind but my mother went off and bought a bunch of blue decorations and tableware. She also won't drop the idea of the shower just being at her house. If I try to object my mother gets pissed off and tells me that I have too much to say about the shower and should just be happy with whatever is planned for me. We had a big fight over the guest list last week and in the end the only thing I could do was give in. I'm so annoyed that this has turned in to exactly what I didn't want. I'm furious that my mother refuses to see that this time it is really not one tiny bit about her and what she wants. I have told my sisters to let it go and not confront my mother about it because in the end it's just going to create more bad feelings. I don't even want a shower now and that makes me sad.

This and that and just starting somewhere

Gosh, it's been awhile.

I've thought about posting more but would then get overwhelmed with how much catching up there was to do. I've been spending lots of time laying down and hoping that my lunch/dinner/snack was going to stay put.

* Just about 23 1/2 weeks and the nausea and throwing up has just started to get better in the last week or so. I'm finally having more good days than bad days.
The only upside is that because of all the weight I lost my pants still fit.

* I've been feeling lots of movement on the inside and to be honest it's kind of cool and more than a little freaky. I'm looking forward to being able to feel those kicks on the outside.

* If you know that I'm pregnant then you can tell that I'm showing. If you don't know than I don't think you can tell.

* I started the baby registry last week and good golly is it overwhelming! I still have to do some research on the bigger purchases like car seat, stroller, play yard, swing.

* My shower is turning in to a huge drama fest and honestly I don't even want one now. (the drama is worthy of it's own post that I'll be writing later).

Short today but longer tomorrow

I love November because so many bloggers participate in NaBloPoMo and that means lots and lots of updates! I'm not sure if I can keep up with posting every day this month but I'll give it a go.

I'm going to keep it short tonight because I'm getting sleepy but I promise to have more to say tomorrow.

September already?

I keep putting off posting anything because for the last few weeks all I had were complaints. The nausea has been miserable. This kid doesn't seem to like food, beverages or being hungry. I think I've lost 20 lbs (no worries - there was plenty of cushion to start with). I keep hoping that it will get better soon. Please get better soon.

The NT scan went well and my results came back in an acceptable range. My next big scan is scheduled for the beginning of Oct and I'm hoping that I'll find out if this little one is a boy or a girl. I'm hoping that it's a girl but of course I'll be just as thrilled if it's a boy.

Sorry lemonade it's over

I've broken things off with lemonade. My new passion is orange-orange Vit.am.in Wat.er. The last 3 weeks I've pretty much been nauseous all day long. Not fun.
I've been feeling better the last few days so fingers crossed that I'm over the worst of it. I find that the nausea is much worse if I let myself get hungry so I've been trying to eat something every 2-3 hours. Yum, saltines at 3am

Big week of happenings around here because tomorrow makes 12 weeks and I have my first appt with the doctor. Friday is the big NT scan and I can't wait to see what this little one is up to in there.

Meet my new best friend...

Lemonade! I'm loving lemonade. It might just be a coincidence (and I hate to say it out loud) but I haven't felt nauseous since I started drinking it yesterday. It's been nice to have a break from the constant icky feeling. Summer has finally found the Northeast and honestly I'm not really a fan. I was kind of liking the rain and cool temperatures.

I'm 9 weeks today and I'm surprised to find that I'm not really feeling as connected as I thought I would be. The family is very excited and talking about names, baby showers and fighting over who will be the first to hold the baby. I'm still feeling very much in limbo and can't think that far ahead. I'm hoping that I'll be feeling more confident once I can check out the heartbeat on a doppler in a few weeks.

8w 3d the week of the nap

I've been meaning to update here but the call of the nap has been so strong lately.

I was complaining before that I wasn't feeling any different. Yeah, not so much anymore. I start to feel nauseous after lunch and can barely eat dinner because I'm afraid of seeing it again. I start feeling less crappy around 9 and I'm conked out and snoozing by 11:30. Today was a great day. I napped from lunch time until dinner time. I know that it could be much much worse so I'm not complaining.

I had my first pregnant lady dr appt the other day and holy saltine crackers was it a giant waste of time! I had to fill out the medical history forms and meet with the nurse. She gave me some pamphlets and told me that I should stay hydrated and avoid alcohol and smoking. That took over an hour. My first appt with the actual doctor is in a few weeks. I hope that one is a little more interesting.

I mentioned to my mom and sister that I plan on using cloth diapers and now they are making me a little nuts. Mom is all about wanting to make some and also trying to convince me that disposable will be so much easier. Sister is all about researching online so she can tell me that there really is no difference. Anyone know of any good cloth diapering resources so I can be the expert on my choice?