Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Finding my voice

The summer flew by and I'm not sure how it got to be almost November already.
I've let other things take up space in my brain the last few months and Operation Baby was unofficially on hiatus. I eased up a bit on the temperature taking and mostly charted just around when I expected to ovulate. I spent the time coming to terms with the fact that I had to get moving on the making a definitive decision on making it happen with a donor.

I did more than just stick my toe in the water this week and actually waded in up to my knees... I finally had my MRI follow up to discuss the fibroid (that is large enough that I think it should be paying me rent). The last time I saw my doctor in April/May I wasn't impressed and left her office close to tears because I didn't feel like she was listening to me and was trying to hurry me out the door. This time it was so much different. She wasn't as dismissive and I felt heard. She was going to suggest a wait and see approach for the fibroid but once I told her that I'm ready to move forward and get pregnant as soon as possible and that I have been charting and trying for more than 18 months she kicked it up a notch. I let her know that I have been seriously considering my donor options and was ready to move forward on my own. She scheduled me for a hysteroscopy and HSG to see if the fibroid is squishing or pinching anything. Hooray for forward movement! 2008 is going to be the year my dreams come true... I just feel it.