Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I need a break. Or a winning lottery ticket
This whole getting laid off thing is seriously stressing me out this week. I think getting the first severance check and all the this and that have been cancelled notices from my various former employee benefits has really hit me hard. I haven't done much to actively seek new employment the last few weeks since I was by plan taking a break and not thinking about it. I have been considering what types of work I would want to do if I had a real choice. I haven't come up with anything other than I want to make the same salary and the what I would be doing has so far escaped me. Everyday there are more lays off announced and I've been getting asked by well meaning friends and relatives how the job search is going and how worried they are and what my plans are for when my money runs out. Those questions are really freaking me out because I'm feeling so overwhelmed already. I told my mother all of that today and she seemed to understand. Well, I thought she did. We stopped at a store and when I tried to pay for her purchase she wouldn't let me and told the sales lady that I had to save my money because I just got laid off. I could tell that as soon as my mother said it she wished she hadn't. Lucky me that it was a chatty clerk who then offered all kinds of advice about how I better get moving and that I should consider a head hunter and blah blah blah. I think if my mother could have made a hole open in the ground to swallow her up she would have.