Monday, April 20, 2009

I think I might be cranky

I just can't decide what I want to talk about. I wanted to post something but I just can't decide what I want to talk about.

I thought I was doing ok dealing with the miscarriage but there have been a few tough moments. Last week I found myself choking back tears when I thought my younger cousin was pregnant again (nope, just put on some weight). I was also all annoyed last night when an old high school friend was all excited to announce to everyone at a little mini reunion that her and the husband were going to start trying. I just know she's going to be one of those people who gets pregnant on the first try.

This cycle is doing it's best to test my patience. I hate odd cycles. It's CD 16 and I'm still waiting for a positive OPK. Lots of CM going on and sort of crampish. I'm worried that my OPKs are duds or that I missed/going to miss ovulation. It's the cramping that concerns me the most because I usually feel them for a few hours the night before ovulation but I think they are more intense than what I have now. It's after midnight and I'm considering testing again. I think I've officially lost my mind!

2 comments:

Billy said...

Not getting a positive but having all the signs, I think I would be cranky too (and even worse..).
Maybe you can try another brand?
Wish you get that positive soon!

meandbaby said...

Hang in there! You were able to pinpoint it last time so I'm sure you'll be able to again. :)